Actuuuaaally....
For some strange reason I have gotten extremely emotional the past couple of hours.
Reasoning:
1. I miss my littlemonsterminimesnugglebugSophiebear SO much tonight.
2. ______ _______
I have never wanted to punch/talk to someone so bad in my entire life.
There was no closer, not that I really deserved any, but STILL...
Almost every single one of my friends are single...We're 19-20 years old, we should be completely happy about this and having fun, right?
El wrongo!
Don't get me wrong, we have ourselves some fun, but at the end of the night - we end up on facebook, or with our phones in hand texting/talking to one another about how "he" (whoever he is) needs to burn in hell, or made us cry without even trying.
Call us pathetic, go ahead...But when you're raised in a town full of high school sweetheart relationships that develop into marriages and small town summer night love stories..you feel like 20 is too late.
Now that's something you can call pathetic.
If there's one thing I've realized over the past year and four months (give or take a few), it's that I cannot make someone else happy/be happy with someone else until I am 100% happy with myself.
I am not that, at all.
So, I'm gonna start on just that...making myself happy.
Then, maybe...JUST MAYBE...Mr. Right will show up.
I thought I "had the job", but apparently, I never clocked in.
Mark my words: tomorrow (well, today) starts a whole new chapter.
Bring it on, Monday.
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